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stuck in north carolina until tomorrrow afternoon...hopefully forever...this place blows...
I love everybody...i wish i didnt have to lie to your face..
please forgive me...you'll know soon enough
in the meantime when im lying just smile and pretend im not
cause im doing it for you...and im dying inside from it.
Love Josh | | |
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wow...that one is accually really accurate
*yawns* What a fun filled week....(it's really not. please kill me now T_T) But I've gotten some drawing done...oh and Hammy got back from camp ^_^ lesse....Oh yeah on Thursday im leaving to go to my stupid family reunion....yippee.... sure will be fun...*sarcasm bleeding through every word* but yeah...so I guess the next time i update will be next tuesday....*puts his index finger to his lips* I've gotta find something worthwhile to talk about.....
oooh I heard dashboards wonderful contribution to the spiderman 2 soundtrack the other day, Vindicated. This is like....love here between me and this song...*heart eyes* and i'm in love with this line: "Hope, dangles on a string, like slow-spinning redemption..." *cries* so wonderful... by my next post I'll try to scan some of my new drawlings and have them up here so you guys wont have to listen to me talk incescently like this XD.
Whats going on with you guys...hammy's back...Dre dyed her hair pink (looks really cool by the way)...and Nick got back from his...missionary...thing...but im really in the dark with the rest of you guys cause i never see you anymore ;_;
well in case you've never heard the wonderful song Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional (great band) I've ripped the lyrics off the net from some poor unsuspecting site *evil maniacal laughter*
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated, I am
{Chorus}
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me
So isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am
{Chorus}
So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away (3x)
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away (4x)
{Chorus}
Slight hope
dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...
much love, ciao | | |
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I MADE A PETTEH! *twitch* ^_^ play with him. he's so cute *snuzzle* | | |
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*sigh* i'm getting so lazy with this thing. let's see if i can remember everything thats happened. ok. I saw Spiderman 2 twice in the past week...it was allright but not exactly award winning material. good plot line and stuff, I suppose I cant complain. Monday I went to the Me Without You concert. They were fantastic. I was there with Megan and Caitlin, and we saw Michelle. Fun times. I got a cd ^_^. And now it's Friday and my little cousin is over eating dinner with us. *yawns* havent gotten a lot of sleep lately.
How have you guys been doing. I havent been on AIM in like...FOREVER O_o don't hurt me. Hmm let's see if i can think of something to generate comments XD ooh i know!
Whats your FAVORITE pokemon. Come on. Admit it. We all liked it at one time or another. So let it out. My fav? DEFINATELY Snorlax...you know..the cute fat bear....thing
Well thats about it ^_^ later. AIM me if you dont already do. L8er | | |
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Well today was pretty good. I got new bands for my braces (green) and i got to go to Davis-Kidd bookstore. I read Angel Sanctuary vol. 1. and Chobits vol. 5. ^_^ so in all it was a lot of fun. Hopefully i can go see SM2 this week *waits impatiently*
Well thats about it. I poured my heart into this so if you want to read it thats cool. Get to know the man behind the Eebit ^_^;;
Love Josh
Name: Josh
Nickname(s): Joshy, Joshy-poo, Joshwah, JT, uhmm... Eebs, and Eebi-chan XD Pooh-Bear (sorry ash!)
Birthday: 02/01/89
Birthplace: Nashville, TN
=Now=
Current mood: hmm....a clash between sleepy and bored...among other things
Current music: I've had Foo Fighters - All My Life stuck in my head all day long T_T
Current taste: That weird vomit/saliva taste
Current hair: less curly and all over the place
Current clothes: My "Not the brightest crayon in the box now are we?" T-shirt and my baggy jeans
Current annoyance: *grins* The stupid people who leave their brights on all the time... i almost got in a wreck tonight
Current smell: *smells* Axe-Kilo well what do you know...i have a scent *smells arm some more*
Current thing I ought to be doing: Hmm...sleeping? I don't know
Current windows open: New Weblog Entry XD Google search of Jet pics ^_^ he's so cool and umm....lemme see You've won a FREE mini ipod, Online Casino, and I have spywear that needs to be deleted *nodnod*
Current desktop picture: >_> beach scene
Current favorite band: hmm....current? i guess that would have to be Rise Against. I've been playing their cd for like 4 nights straight!!
Current book: *blinkus* OH! At davis Kidd tonight I read Angel Sanctuary vol. 1. It was incredible
Current cd in stereo: Rise Against - Revolutions Per Minute
Current crush: *taps nose* nobody knows and that'll stay
Current favorite celeb: hmmm....Johnny Depp *drool*
Current hate: Hardwood floors...I just wanna lie down on a carpet....with hammy...naked =)
=Do I=
Smoke cigarettes?: Nah...i don't think i really wanna waste the money on it
Do drugs?: once again the money thing. plus someone i love a lot is really struggling with drugs so i'd never do them while openly criticizing him about his addiction
Have sex?: Hmm...I wish
Give oral sex?: XD well now...aren't we asking a lot of questions
Receive oral sex?: *clears throat* ditto the above two answers
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: Well not exactly. I always have a dream relating to a person ive thought a lot about that day. so i might have a similar dream about the same person but no two dreams are ever the same
Remember your first love?: yeah. it's kind of embarassing
Still love him/her?: we've split apart over our decisions, I have no regrets
Read the newspaper?: i scan it occasionally for current events, nothing special
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: ^_^ of course
Believe in miracles?: I'd have to say yes. Little decisions and paths ive taken have caused me to encounter some of my best friends. like i never would have met ben if i didnt play pokemon cards in 5th grade, and if i hadn't met ben I wouldn't have met Dre or Caitlin or a bunch of other people. So in essence yeah .
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: If two people are committed then yes
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: I'm pretty nice to people I'd have to admit. Maybe I don't seem like it, but thats just my opinion ^_^;
Consider love a mistake?: sometimes love can cause mistakes but love itself and the act of love is never a mistake
Like the taste of alcohol? it's not bad. I'll say that much
Have a favorite candy?: penut M&Ms I know I'm such an old man =\
Believe in astrology?: nothing predicted has come true as of yet for me
Believe in magic?: I'd like to believe so but in all, no. I don't think that spells and tricks can replace actions ever....wishing gets you nowhere
Believe in God?: yeah, i don't think i would be where i am today if it wasn't for Him
Have any pets?: my doggy Rosie ^_^
Go to or plan to go to college: yeah. I need to, to become a minister that is. I won't give up on my dreams
Have any piercings?: stupid conservative parents *grumble*
Have any tattoos?: i wanna get a really cool celtic cross on my back, again with the conservativeness
Hate yourself: No. I may hate my actions or my inabilities but i could never hate myself
Have an obsession?: *blushes* does reading the Biblah count?
Have a secret crush?: *starts sweating* yeah...some people know one of them...but THIS ONE IM NEVER TELLING ANYONE...
Do they know yet?: they might know...im just not sure
Have a best friend?: I love you guys. I'm probably closest to Dre Nick and Ben. As for online friends I'd have to say Chemmy, Phen, Hammy,Rain,Bill *snuzzles* Chibby, Arzy, annnnnnd >_< lemme see...oh and Sazzy and Rab ^_^; i think thats everybody
Wish on stars?: i've wasted too much time on it
Care about looks: i guess so
=Love life=
First crush: *sighs*
First kiss: *makes an X with index fingers*
Single or attached?: single. wooo go bachelorism *waves a pennant*
Do you believe in love at first sight?: *grins* i've heard of sillier things
Describe your ideal significant other: they have to like the same kind of music or else I'll have nothing to babble about ^_^;; uhh they might have a nice body...but i guess in all true love prevails. they would have to support me in my ministry career, even if they aren't christians themselves. They would be sweet, lovable. Someone I could wrap my arms around and just stand in warm embrace. And they would have to have pretty eyes....I find them to be the most attractive feature of a date....eyes that could pierce my heart and let me drift into them, which is funny cause I have the worst eyes *grumbles* And they would...always be there for me. Whenever I needed a helping hand or a word of advice, they'd be there. But listen to me just rambling on ^_^;;
=Juicy stuff=
Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?: *grins* yeah my friends and I play P-diddle in the car at night and sometimes strip poker.
Have you ever been intoxicated?: a little maybe *blushes* i didnt know that they gave me a long island iced tea...i just ordered tea
Favorite place to be kissed?: hasn't happened....i'd guess neck or chest
Have you ever been caught "doing something?": O_O;;; i almost got caught wanking off in my room *shivers*
Are you a tease?: as if. im probably one of the most straight-forward guys you'll meet
Shy to make the first move?: yeah
=Word association=
rubber: pants
rock: strong
green: envy
cry: distant
peanut: crunchy
cold: shoulder
steamy: bathroom mirror
bite: braces
religion: Christianity
--APPEARANCE:--
hair: medium long, brown, wavy
eyes: dark brown
height: 6'1
weight: 200 (im not fat it's all muscle XD well maybe a little fat more like cutely chubby)
-LAST THING YOU:-
Bought: pencils and paper
Ate: fish *blech*
Read: a review of Pokemon Adventures (really cool manga)
Watched on tv: Cowboy Bebop *sighs*
--EITHER / OR:--
club or houseparty: houseparty (never been to a real club)
beer or cider: beer
drinks or shots: drinks....shots contain hard liquor *nodnod* id be out like a light O_O;;
cats or dogs: Doggys!! Pink Doggys!!
pen or pencil: the pen may be mightier than the sword, but the pencil is mightier than the pen *draws his pencil* WOOPLAH!
gloves or mittens: glovsies are more fun. especially fingerless gloves *grins*
food or candy: food ^_^; candy's generally pretty gross
cassette or cd: CDs with an S!
coke or pepsi: eww pepsi....i'll stick with coke
this or that: this ^_^ i mean it's the first and the first is the best *stamp of professionalism*
--LAST PERSON YOU--
talked to: dad
hugged: *thinks* i dont know....maybe houston
kissed: *frowns*
--WHERE DO YOU:--
eat: kitchen?
cry: i don't cry...ever
--have you:--
Dated one of your best friends? nah
Loved somebody so much it makes you cry?: yeah....i almost cried the last time I thought about them...my crush
Drank alcohol? accidentally i swear!
done drugs? *shakes his head*
Broken the law? nothing serious! *whimper*
Run away from home? yeah
Broken a bone? i broke my left foot three times on three seperate occasions. same place. i have kind of a limp because of it
Kissed someone you didn't know? dont think so
Been in a fight? i might have a verbal fight but ive never actually hit anybody in anger. i'm just a softy i suppose *blush*
Been close to dying?: yeah a few times. once was almost caused by myself
--WHAT IS:--
The most embarrassing CD in your collection? the Vines >_> but i wanna get Chicago/Little Shop Of Horrors soundtracks so i guess those would be it
Anamaniacs? YACKO WHAKO AND DOT!
Your favorite thing for breakfast? dont eat breakfast...i wake up at 11:00 on a good day XD
Your favorite restaurant?: i went to this place called the wild iris. it was pretty good. i dont really eat out often though
On your bedside table?: some drawings, a lamp, my battle royale #2, a comb, and Axe Kilo ^_^;;
What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night?: i dont really get hungry, but i guess benut butter and crackers =\
What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?: well i dont cry, but i saw this really sad movie a few days ago. i think it was called Mystic River
If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?: hmmm....bleach my teeth? i've always wanted to have those blinding white teeth XD
What is your biggest fear?: well im afraid of dark hallways =\ some bugs annnnnnd....well i dont usually tell people this but i kind of imagine everything in it's worst possible outcome...so often in my head im seeing people get hurt when im staring off into space for long periods of time....it's kind of scary =(
What feature are you most insecure about?: hmm...i dont really like my smile so i kind of just grin a lot. I only give my toothy smile to people i like ^_^;;
Do you ever have to beg: not in front of my friends
Are you a pyromaniac?: occasionally
Do you have too many love interests?: i dont really follow...but i guess there are a lot of people i like *kisses hammy on the mouth*
Crushes?: jesus...this thing gets kind of repetetive...
Do you know anyone famous?: not really. my dad knows a lot of people
Describe your bed: a twin bed crammed up against the side of my room. The bedding and blankets were all from target. No head or footboards cause of my stupid tallness. My dog sleeps on there a lot so it smells like her ^_^
Spontaneous or plain?: i love spontaneous moments....just whisk me off my feet my love
Do you know how to play poker?: yeah ^_^;; im not bad either
What do you carry with you at all times?: my wallet, phone, cd-player and headphones along with my current fav cd. leather bracelet
How do you drive?: hmm im not a bad driver I just like to speed. Sue me... I DIDNT MEAN ACCUALLY SUE ME!!! ;_;
Are you happy with your given name? i despise my name...Josh just reminds me of preps and geek losers *grumbles* why can't I get a cool name...like Jet *sighs* maybe I'll start going by Eebs
What color is your bedroom? Red white and black
What was the last song you were listening to?: Like the Angel - Rise Against
Have you ever been in a play?: ^_^ yeah. church and school plays.
Who are your best friends?: Dre Nick and Ben
Do you talk a lot?: I'm kind of shy. I don't really seem like it on the net though =\
Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?: i believe that with determination and a strong will i can do whatever my dreams yell at me to do
Do you think you're cute?: uhh people tell me im cute when im clumsy....i dont know...*frowns*
Do poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?: hmmm my mom says that homeless people did something to deserve the position in now. i kinda feel like anybody can lose everything...they dont annoy me I just pity them
Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?: it's not always possible to be nice and true. i just follow my heart
Do you spend more time with your girlfriend, boyfriend, or your friends?: friends....i'm still single *blushes*
two gay guys or lesbians holding hands?: hehe sure, why not ^_^
comments: well now you know more about me than you ever wanted to *cheesy grin* comments would be great but i doubt anyone read this far...I love you guys so much and there are so many things i wish i could get off my chest right now | | |
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